May 5, 2005
Julian Meditations

April, 2005

Come, Be With Me

by Macrina Wiederkehr, OSB

IN RECENT YEARS, I seem to hear God say, "Put your books away and just be with Me. Trust your experience. There are no experts in prayer, only people who have been faithful to the ache in their hearts."

I reflect on this with both anxiety and joy. Why shouldn't our experiences be filled with God? Who do we think it is who is breathing in us? Where do we think this ache has come from? And has it ever crossed your mind that God, too, has a fierce ache for you? This is the only message I've been getting in prayer these days: "Forget the experts for a while. Trust your own experience."

Trusting our own experience is not nearly as easy as it sounds. We have not been brought up to our experience; we have been encouraged to listen to "the ones who know." If what I say does anything at all for you, I hope it will lead you to the awesome resources in your own soul.

You are a dwelling place for the source of All Life. You are an offspring of the One who said, "I am who I am." If the One who gave you birth lives within you, surely you can find some resources there in your sacred Center. An expert lives within you. An expert breathes out of you. Are you able to be still enough to become intimate with the One who lives within? This is the only expert you will ever meet. Your life is entwined with the God who gave you birth.

Frail dust, remember, you are splendor!

Taken from A Tree Full of Angels by Macrina Wiederkehr (San Francisco, CA: HarperSanFrancisco, 1988).